As I sit here thinking,
My thoughts always go back to you.
Remember how slow we took things,
You should have run when you had the chance.
Now look how fast we move.
We can't stand to be apart,
Atleast that's how I feel I hope you do too.
As I'm trying to write,
I only want to write for you.
I want to show you how I feel through my words.
I have a book to complete
But all I want to write is my love for you.
As I sit here thinking,
Now it's to late for you to run
You're caught up in it too.

I am writing you on the eve of returning to Vancouver. As you can imagine so many things are running through my mind. That is why I feel compelled to express to you how I am feeling. I ask myself where are we now, where will we be in the future and how will we get there. We have both come to an understanding that there is something more to us and that we need to be careful with it and take care of it and explore it slowly. The future holds no promises but promises everything in the same breath. Do we take the jump and see where is goes? I know I want to.

The one thing I know for sure is that I need to properly close some doors and start a different chapter in my life first. There is no doubt in my mind what I need to do in that area, I know what I feel for you is real and I don’t have any time lines in my head but, All I know is how I feel when I am with you and given when it’s the right place and time, there is no person, places or things that will keep me from the one thing in my life and heart to be true and that is you. No matter how many dates I have gone on or taken an easy way out it has not allowed me to forget you.

I’m waiting for life to pass by
I try to hide from the lies
Confused by whose foe or allies

Fight back the feelings I feel inside
Sick in my stomach from the butterflies
So happy but why do I cry

Together but alone forever
Whatever I need to feel for whomever
You’re my lover but why longing for someone other

Our fate, my soul mate
You have to create
But why chase the chase

My best friend, my companion
Their till the end
In love and when it’s all said and done, you’re the only one

It seems that we already have to say goodbye
Even though we just said hello
But you have to leave my side
And yet your feelings barely show

You do care that I'm going away?
So why hold in your cries
Is there anything that you want to say?
Any words would be good right now, even lies

I am looking right through you
I know that you want me to stay
So then why do you move?
Sliding further and further away

I need to leave and not like this
Tell me you love me and that you want me
I can’t believe, it’s all happening to quick
I love you and I want you Terri

I have to go
I'll call you when I get there

I am not a part of your life. You cannot give me a place in your heart. If you could, you would do it definitely. You have the right to live with the person you like. You are genuinely good girl who got all the qualities I ever know. I can understand you.I think, I am a kind of selfish person who try to get every thing I need. I may be not good as you. Until i give up my selfishness, I have to suffer. I need your love, that is the only thing I expect in my life. But it is not realistic. My mind should be open to accept any thing. If I say, I am ok now. It is a total lie. There is no shortcut to come to that state of mind soon.

Im laying here tonight missing you so much it hurts.. I cant seem to get you off my mind .. I close my eyes and i see your face, your eyes so filled with love as you look at me.. Then you smile at me, you seem close enough to touch.. I want so much to kiss you, to feel your touch, to just have you hold me in your arms.. Tonight I would give anything to just hear you, to hear you say that I love you.. I know that I will see you tomorrow, but tomorrow seems so far away tonight!

You came into my life and you saved me..
I gave up on love and happiness thought it wasn't for me... I remember the first time we kissed I was so scared.. Scared to fall in love again scared of the pain that can come with being in love.. I had built walls around my heart that I never thought anyone would be able to tear down.. You never gave up on me, and you chipped away the walls that I had built .. I know that I have not made things easy for you and for that I am sorry.. But when I look in your eyes I no that I don't ever want to loose you, I feel safe there.. When you hold me in your arms I don't ever want you to let me go..

This pain that im feeling
Is somewhat still hurting
when you were beside me
It seems like we never felt anything.

I wish it would remain the same
But somethings meant to change
I knew it was a fluke
But i was still hoping it was true

I never felt so empty
The feeling thats been so lonely
Although I can't go on
with out the love that didn't feel so strong

memoirs kept on coming
from time to time i know it means something
but now i have to let go of everything
the feeling that's only caused me weaping

Now i can see, the love that you have for me
just like a paper roses

Ever dearest________,

You took me to a world that burn my heart and gave life to my spirit. The only place where I found a one-of-a-kind feeling filled with heavenly bliss! I never thought I could ever have the chance to get there and embrace such a wonderful experience were it not for you.

You were there who stood as my “soulmate” and encouraged me to polish my rod rusted with time. An instrument I thought would never be of use again until you came.

You were the rainbow that gave my sky different vibrant colors from the spectrum; the mystique moon, my only source of light amidst starless nights. These moments would never have been the same were it not for you.

I've loved you, you know thats true.
Then you went and broke my heart in 2.

Now iv found a love thats pure. Stronger then any before.
Im happy now, i feel alive. I wake with a shine in my eye.
No more tears fall from them because of the evil within your heart.

I am happy now cant you see. Im better of away from thee.
I stupidly wish you could be happy, that you would see what you did so wrong to me.

Im growing stronger every day, but still the scars they remain.
Will you ever be gone out of my life?
Will the ghosts in my head ever be dead?
I wish i could put you to rest.