My Addiction

I'm laying here alone
With only thoughts of you in my mind
Your my obsession
In some ways that is
The thought of you
Puts a smile on my face
Hearing your name
Places chills down my spine
When i'm sad, I think of our memories
Being around you
Hearing your wonderful voice speak my name
When you look in my eyes
I feel like i'm flying
Soaring high above everyone else
With only you by my side
My daydreams revolve around you
I think wonderful thoughts
Like us finally being together
Deeply in love
Our first date
Our first kiss
Our first time...
No I will not deny it
Who doesn't imagine making love
With the only person you truly do love
We all do it, just not all of us admit it
But i'm not ashamed
I'm not ashamed of my love for you
Sometimes I wonder if I love you
Or if i'm in love with you
There is a huge difference
In those two sentences
But deep down
I know the truth
I just don't want to rush anymore than I already have
My feelings for you happened so fast
But only because your that wonderful
That amazing
That addicting
I understand now why people say
Love is confusing and unpredictable
Because although you may not feel the same
I am in love with you
And i'm more confused that I have ever been
As for the unpredictable part
I have never been more oblivious
To what is going to happen next
I never know when i'm going to see you again
I don't know when I will talk to you again
Or if we will ever be together
But I know I have to see you again, talk to you again
I need to
Out of all the guys I have liked
And thought about constantly
Can't even add up to my feelings for you
Or how much I think about you
Some think that any kind of addiction is bad
But I disagree
Sure, sometimes they can be bad
In the way that hurts you
But it's also good
A blessing
Your my addiction
I'm addicted to how I feel when i'm with you
Or just when I think of you
But this addiction can be bad
I can get hurt
Hurt beyond repair
Forever Damaged
But I know you won't do that
You won't let me suffer
You are more caring than that
I just have to see you, be around you
Breathe in your scent
Look into your breath taking eyes
It's amazing what you do to me
How wonderful you make me feel
Without even trying
Loving you is something that comes naturally
As natural as breathing
It is also like breathing in some ways
Without breathing I will suffocate and die
Without you I think i'll die
Every breath feels wonderful and relieving
When i'm around you I feel wonderful
And relieved to finally see you again
Your a very important source to my being
You make up a huge part of who I am
And everything I want to be
All I want is you
I could have nothing, but still have you
And I will still be the happiest person alive
Try holding your breath as long as you can
It begins to hurt doesn't it?
You feel awkward and uncomfortable
Being away from you feels like that
Now let go of that breath
And take a deep breath in
Doesn't it feel great? A sensation that relieves you
Seeing you again does that to me
A flood of joy and happiness
Finally being able to breathe
After holding my breath for so long
I can breathe once again.