I honestly dont know

Now I see you, later I won’t
Now I can hug, you later I won’t
I cannot stress how much I miss you.
But I cannot stop you from doing what you need to do.

Yes, I may not have the strength to follow all our biddings.
I may not have the will to stop smoking.
But that does not mean that I love you less.
I can’t understand, why small things like this get in our way.

I cannot pretend that I don’t care; I cannot pretend that it does not bother me.
I cannot even tell myself that it’s ok. But somehow somewhere inside of me is crying.
I know you will be gone in a couple of days, I know you have to go far away.
I just wish that this stuff won’t be the measure of our love.

Mahal, I’m getting scared, I’m getting stressed.
I just want to feel calm, somehow I want to feel safe.
At the end of the day were still far away.

More than a thousand miles, more than the oceans rise.
I just want you here but you need to be there.
I want you to stay with me. I want you to be here for me.
I don’t want you out of my sight co’z I can’t get you out of my mind.

Honestly I am scared, honestly I really can’t think. Honestly I am afraid.