suicide

the emotions that i show are usually something im trying to hide
standing on the edge off life watching from the other side
abandoning everything thing thats real contemplating suicide
finally had enough of this shit my brain is almost fried
loosing control of reality i have nothing left but pride
which as a hole aint much when everything else has gone and died
my soul has left forever the last thing on which i relied
i tried to pull myself together by taking drugs that were not prescribed
amphet pills crack cocaine also ketimine i tried
what a buzz whilst off ya nut but when ya down